(i thought this was the coolest thing ever...i got it in an email..so i thought i'd share it w/ you!)
"Let me explain the problem science has with JesusChrist." The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes sir," the student says.
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment.
"Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"
The student remains silent.
"No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
"Let's start again, young fella Is God good?"
"Er...yes," the student says.
"Is Satan good?"
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No."
"Then where does Satan come from?"
The student : "From...God..."
"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?"
"Yes, sir."
"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?"
"Yes."
"So who created evil?" The professor continued, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil."
Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: "Is there sickness?
Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"
The student: "Yes."
"So who created them?"
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.
"Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.
"Tell me," he continues onto another student. "Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"
The student's voice is confident: "Yes, professor, I do."
The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"
"No sir. I've never seen Him"
"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"
"No, sir, I have not."
"Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?"
"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."
"Yet you still believe in him?"
"Yes."
"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?"
"Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith."
"Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.
"Professor, is there such thing as heat?"
"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."
"And is there such a thing as cold?"
"Yes, son, there's cold too."
"No sir, there isn't."
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet.
The student begins to explain.
"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.
"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?"
"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation.
"What is night if it isn't darkness?"
"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. "So what point are you making, young man?"
"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed? Can you explain how?"
"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains. "You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it."
"Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"
"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do"
"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.
A very good semester, indeed.
"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
"To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean."
The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?"
The class breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"
Now the room is silent.
The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.
"I guess you'll have to take them on faith."
"Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life," the student continues.
"Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?"
Now uncertain, the professor responds, "Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."
To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."
The professor sat down.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Doubt.
When tears fall, They crash down,
but when you've cried so many,
the ones that fall have no meaning,
can they crash?
When life shatters all around you,and it has no worth
and everything was broken to begin with,
does life really shatter?
When you overcome hardships, but they keep racing back.
and twisting everything you've worked so hard for,
have you really overcome?
When you seek helpand shelter with a rescuer,
but you always find yourself in the same deep waters,drowning again,
have you really been rescued?
When you look to your friends for guidence and support,
but they keep letting you fall,
are you really being supported?
When life is tearing at the seams,
should God sew it up?
Can He? Will He? SHOULD He?
Doubt is my biggest insecurity,should i crawl outside my box to seek help,
or should i stay inside, where im safe and comfortable?
I'll stay safe.With my guard up, safe and secure.
'Til i can trust my heart fully.
but when you've cried so many,
the ones that fall have no meaning,
can they crash?
When life shatters all around you,and it has no worth
and everything was broken to begin with,
does life really shatter?
When you overcome hardships, but they keep racing back.
and twisting everything you've worked so hard for,
have you really overcome?
When you seek helpand shelter with a rescuer,
but you always find yourself in the same deep waters,drowning again,
have you really been rescued?
When you look to your friends for guidence and support,
but they keep letting you fall,
are you really being supported?
When life is tearing at the seams,
should God sew it up?
Can He? Will He? SHOULD He?
Doubt is my biggest insecurity,should i crawl outside my box to seek help,
or should i stay inside, where im safe and comfortable?
I'll stay safe.With my guard up, safe and secure.
'Til i can trust my heart fully.
Monday, November 12, 2007
What a weekend!!!
mood: mellow
good day/bad day: pretty dang good.
so this weekend drew came to see ACU...but of course i couldnt just let him come to abilene and not see me..so we hung out quite a bit...which was SOOO much fun and i totally loved every min. of it. (thanks dude!)
and today i got to go get my senior pics taken. which that was pretty cool...i totally enjoyed that. i mean who doesnt like being the center of attention...jkjkjk...
i have an english test i have to study for...but i think ill be ok. i've looked over it afew times...so i think i know everything. ill pass for sure.
but about this weekend...
i cant believe what is happening to me. i mean i still feel closed up and like i should still be protecting myself for getting hurt...but when im with this guy...i cant help but just be in total and complete love with him. its crazy. my heart goes wild and i just cant stop smiling. i get these weird feelings that freak me out and it uncontrolable. he takes my breathe away. but deep down i feel like i should still have this unbreakable shield up. but he breaks it down w/o even knowing...it blows my mind! so im still very confused...and i think im supposed to be in a way...but im almost freaked out...and i think i freaked him out a little too b/c i didnt talk very much and i was staring off into space alot of the time...im sure that was weird for him...sorry. but i just couldnt wrap my mind around why the crap would someone still want me, even though i was w/ this guy for 3 years and from all the stuff i've done and been through...why me? why?? i mean shouldnt he be worried or anything...i mean nothing would EVER happen, but im a little jealous sometimes and i would DEFINATLY worry...but i also wouldnt tell anyone...so maybe thats what he's doing..idk...im making my head hurt thinking about it. but i just cant help BUT love him...its crazy.
so off of that subject b/c its probably REALLY boring to you...everyone should check out "pure-photography.com" and check out some of the stuff my photographer has done....she's AMAZING! its great! anywho..i hope you have a great night!!!
PEACE!!!
good day/bad day: pretty dang good.
so this weekend drew came to see ACU...but of course i couldnt just let him come to abilene and not see me..so we hung out quite a bit...which was SOOO much fun and i totally loved every min. of it. (thanks dude!)
and today i got to go get my senior pics taken. which that was pretty cool...i totally enjoyed that. i mean who doesnt like being the center of attention...jkjkjk...
i have an english test i have to study for...but i think ill be ok. i've looked over it afew times...so i think i know everything. ill pass for sure.
but about this weekend...
i cant believe what is happening to me. i mean i still feel closed up and like i should still be protecting myself for getting hurt...but when im with this guy...i cant help but just be in total and complete love with him. its crazy. my heart goes wild and i just cant stop smiling. i get these weird feelings that freak me out and it uncontrolable. he takes my breathe away. but deep down i feel like i should still have this unbreakable shield up. but he breaks it down w/o even knowing...it blows my mind! so im still very confused...and i think im supposed to be in a way...but im almost freaked out...and i think i freaked him out a little too b/c i didnt talk very much and i was staring off into space alot of the time...im sure that was weird for him...sorry. but i just couldnt wrap my mind around why the crap would someone still want me, even though i was w/ this guy for 3 years and from all the stuff i've done and been through...why me? why?? i mean shouldnt he be worried or anything...i mean nothing would EVER happen, but im a little jealous sometimes and i would DEFINATLY worry...but i also wouldnt tell anyone...so maybe thats what he's doing..idk...im making my head hurt thinking about it. but i just cant help BUT love him...its crazy.
so off of that subject b/c its probably REALLY boring to you...everyone should check out "pure-photography.com" and check out some of the stuff my photographer has done....she's AMAZING! its great! anywho..i hope you have a great night!!!
PEACE!!!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
It's been awhile.
mood: depressed
good day/bad day: its hard to describe. good and bad.
so i havnt written in awhile. but im in the mood to write.
...ill start by filling yall in on what's gone on in the past couple of weeks, then ill let you know about how my day has gone, and how i feel about all that.
so last time i wrote it was a wed. and it was good. but since then, i've had my first wreck, our school has made it to playoffs, i have taken two major test and i have made more friends.
my first wreck...was actually not in my car and it was not my fault. someone ran in to me while i was stopped at a rail road crossing. so there you go. and our school is second in our district so we will advance to playoffs week after next. which is oh so exciting. and the other is pretty self explanatory. i dont have my grades back but i hope to get them soon....and i love making friends...its so fun.
ok...so about my day. well, yesterday too. so me and a really good friend...like she's my best friend were talking yesterday...i didnt see anything wrong w/ telling my best friend what mood i was in and how i was feeling. but i told her not even thinking twoce about it b/c i trusted her. but today...me and a guy go see a movie....i dont see any harm in that...just two friends going to see a movie. and i had even told the guy i want to date what i was up to...so its not like i was sneaking around and trying to hook up with him...we were just bored and he was like 'hey you want to go see a movie or something??" and i was like ya i have nothing better to do...lets go...so we did. anyway my best friend found out where he was and text me and she got so freaking mad that i was with him...(oh its her ex btw...but she's dating someone else) so she's telling me how bad of a friends that i am and that im such a whore b/c of the mood i was in last night and blah blah....so im sitting here like what the crap did i do. i mean i dont want to hook up w/ him and i just wanted to be his friend and i cant do that b/c she thinks that its unlawful for her best friend to go ahng out w/ her ex boyfriend. which is kind of silly to me b/c i thought she was over him and she's "in love" with another guy...and she freaked out b/c "i cant do that to her"...so i dont know what to do...i mean i dont want to loose two friends over this but it all seems SO STUPID to me. i mean why i cant i be both their friends....she told me that he was "untouchable" to me....which in the sense of dating i want him to be that way..but as friends???? i dont understand...i just dont understand. im so upset about it too. i mean she knows i like this other guy...and the other guy knows EXACTLY where i stand and knows what i was doing....so why is it SO wrong??? idk...i feel so lost and confuse...
so when i first started feeling that way...i went and ran 3 miles....and when i got back justin had called so i called him back and he wanted me to go to this concert they were putting on tonight but i was like no...b/c i feel like crap....so i told him the story and he felt the same way i do. but he advised me to be careful...b/c i dont need to be leading guys on...but i dont think i did that. so i think im safe. but i still feel like crap...even though all i did was go see a movie and go home. UHHH!!! and i havnt even had the chance to talk to drew(the guy i like) about it b/c he's been at work... :(...so the second half of my day was horrible....except for running and talking a nap.
wow....i just wrote like a novel....ill let you get on w/ your life....im sure this was very boring and very bland...sorry. PEACE i hope you had a much better day than i.
good day/bad day: its hard to describe. good and bad.
so i havnt written in awhile. but im in the mood to write.
...ill start by filling yall in on what's gone on in the past couple of weeks, then ill let you know about how my day has gone, and how i feel about all that.
so last time i wrote it was a wed. and it was good. but since then, i've had my first wreck, our school has made it to playoffs, i have taken two major test and i have made more friends.
my first wreck...was actually not in my car and it was not my fault. someone ran in to me while i was stopped at a rail road crossing. so there you go. and our school is second in our district so we will advance to playoffs week after next. which is oh so exciting. and the other is pretty self explanatory. i dont have my grades back but i hope to get them soon....and i love making friends...its so fun.
ok...so about my day. well, yesterday too. so me and a really good friend...like she's my best friend were talking yesterday...i didnt see anything wrong w/ telling my best friend what mood i was in and how i was feeling. but i told her not even thinking twoce about it b/c i trusted her. but today...me and a guy go see a movie....i dont see any harm in that...just two friends going to see a movie. and i had even told the guy i want to date what i was up to...so its not like i was sneaking around and trying to hook up with him...we were just bored and he was like 'hey you want to go see a movie or something??" and i was like ya i have nothing better to do...lets go...so we did. anyway my best friend found out where he was and text me and she got so freaking mad that i was with him...(oh its her ex btw...but she's dating someone else) so she's telling me how bad of a friends that i am and that im such a whore b/c of the mood i was in last night and blah blah....so im sitting here like what the crap did i do. i mean i dont want to hook up w/ him and i just wanted to be his friend and i cant do that b/c she thinks that its unlawful for her best friend to go ahng out w/ her ex boyfriend. which is kind of silly to me b/c i thought she was over him and she's "in love" with another guy...and she freaked out b/c "i cant do that to her"...so i dont know what to do...i mean i dont want to loose two friends over this but it all seems SO STUPID to me. i mean why i cant i be both their friends....she told me that he was "untouchable" to me....which in the sense of dating i want him to be that way..but as friends???? i dont understand...i just dont understand. im so upset about it too. i mean she knows i like this other guy...and the other guy knows EXACTLY where i stand and knows what i was doing....so why is it SO wrong??? idk...i feel so lost and confuse...
so when i first started feeling that way...i went and ran 3 miles....and when i got back justin had called so i called him back and he wanted me to go to this concert they were putting on tonight but i was like no...b/c i feel like crap....so i told him the story and he felt the same way i do. but he advised me to be careful...b/c i dont need to be leading guys on...but i dont think i did that. so i think im safe. but i still feel like crap...even though all i did was go see a movie and go home. UHHH!!! and i havnt even had the chance to talk to drew(the guy i like) about it b/c he's been at work... :(...so the second half of my day was horrible....except for running and talking a nap.
wow....i just wrote like a novel....ill let you get on w/ your life....im sure this was very boring and very bland...sorry. PEACE i hope you had a much better day than i.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
whew what a day!
mood: blah
good day/bad day: it wasnt bad....
so this morning we had FCA...which is totally cool. and one of my really good friends did the lesson...but as i was listening it came to me that i really needed to do a lesson on forgivness....which is weird b/c thats something i dont struggle w/. but i think im going to do that. which will be TOTALLY AWESOME! im pumped...
but anywho...i've been thinking alot about the future lately...which i should be...but more specifically like real near future...
this weekend is my last marching contest i will ever go to...which is a VERY good thing...but im sad that i have to leave everyone...
and next week im taking my ACT and im really getting serious about college...and very soon ill be attending my last high school football game EVER! thats so sad. :(
but it really hits home to know that some of your very best friends are about to step out of your life forever. i dont like that feeling...at all.
i know that God doesnt want us to worry about the future and stuff, and im not, but i really want to know if ill be surrounded by good people. and that ill be supported in everyway. and this is all totally his will and i dont have a clue about any of it...but i can help but wonder about it..
oh by the way...school is KICKING my butt right now...i love it love it love it...but biology and gov't are a killer. im trying to prepare myself for college, and my mom is working to help me to try to mange my money, but i feel like i really need to step it up and take complete control of EVERY aspect of my life....like money, time, school, my extracarriculars, everything. i want to be on my own and i want to take care of myself and be independant....i guess i just want freedom...but other than that i think school is awesome...its by far the best year of school so far and its done nothing but get better...so im really looking forward to it...
so this blog is totally random but i dont really care...hope i didnt waste too much of your time...i hope you have a great day!!! PEACE!
good day/bad day: it wasnt bad....
so this morning we had FCA...which is totally cool. and one of my really good friends did the lesson...but as i was listening it came to me that i really needed to do a lesson on forgivness....which is weird b/c thats something i dont struggle w/. but i think im going to do that. which will be TOTALLY AWESOME! im pumped...
but anywho...i've been thinking alot about the future lately...which i should be...but more specifically like real near future...
this weekend is my last marching contest i will ever go to...which is a VERY good thing...but im sad that i have to leave everyone...
and next week im taking my ACT and im really getting serious about college...and very soon ill be attending my last high school football game EVER! thats so sad. :(
but it really hits home to know that some of your very best friends are about to step out of your life forever. i dont like that feeling...at all.
i know that God doesnt want us to worry about the future and stuff, and im not, but i really want to know if ill be surrounded by good people. and that ill be supported in everyway. and this is all totally his will and i dont have a clue about any of it...but i can help but wonder about it..
oh by the way...school is KICKING my butt right now...i love it love it love it...but biology and gov't are a killer. im trying to prepare myself for college, and my mom is working to help me to try to mange my money, but i feel like i really need to step it up and take complete control of EVERY aspect of my life....like money, time, school, my extracarriculars, everything. i want to be on my own and i want to take care of myself and be independant....i guess i just want freedom...but other than that i think school is awesome...its by far the best year of school so far and its done nothing but get better...so im really looking forward to it...
so this blog is totally random but i dont really care...hope i didnt waste too much of your time...i hope you have a great day!!! PEACE!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
so basically life sucks sometimes.
mood: REALLY tired and not looking forward to tomorrow...
good day/bad day: UUUHHGGGG!!
so today was sucky! i woke up late, my gov teacher is crazy and i have to wear a dress to school tomorrow. that sucks!
but i think that everything will turn out great b/c there is alot going for me right now...so ill make it through b/c IM A SUPER STAR!! (hence the picture)
i do get to babysit tomorrow...which im totally excited about and i have 2 major exams out of the way..just one to go. ive actually been reading my book for english so ill have it done by next tuesday for sure...ive been sliming down alot b/c of my work out habits so that EXCITES me! way pumped...there nothing that can make a girl feel better than to know they have a nice body...well there are things, but it sure does make me feel good at least...
i was really mad yesterday b/c my lowest grade was in accounting and that class is EASY! i was ticked!!
but we're changing that this six weeks....
and now im really tired b/c i just got done running 2 miles and now im going to take a nap...
PEACE OUT!! (you can be a super star too!!!)
OH...a good verse that i found this week is...
Ephesians 3:19
"..and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be
filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."
good day/bad day: UUUHHGGGG!!
so today was sucky! i woke up late, my gov teacher is crazy and i have to wear a dress to school tomorrow. that sucks!
but i think that everything will turn out great b/c there is alot going for me right now...so ill make it through b/c IM A SUPER STAR!! (hence the picture)
i do get to babysit tomorrow...which im totally excited about and i have 2 major exams out of the way..just one to go. ive actually been reading my book for english so ill have it done by next tuesday for sure...ive been sliming down alot b/c of my work out habits so that EXCITES me! way pumped...there nothing that can make a girl feel better than to know they have a nice body...well there are things, but it sure does make me feel good at least...
i was really mad yesterday b/c my lowest grade was in accounting and that class is EASY! i was ticked!!
but we're changing that this six weeks....
and now im really tired b/c i just got done running 2 miles and now im going to take a nap...
PEACE OUT!! (you can be a super star too!!!)
OH...a good verse that i found this week is...
Ephesians 3:19
"..and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be
filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
blah bluh blahblah...
mood: VERY tired and burned out
good day/bad day: eehh...
So i havnt blogged in awhile...so i thought i would today...
we got out of school at one...and its homecoming week..which means everything is hectic!!
So so for nominee's are Bretni , she's so super sweet and i love her! and she's the prettiest person i have ever seen in my entire life...no joke , Haley, she's a sweetheart too, i am in track w/ her and i've roomed w/ her every year...but she's the one i know the least about, Kenli, she's my bestie out of all of them! me and her are eachothers match for everything (except looks...she's gorgous!) and we've been running the same thing in track since our 7th grade year...i love her!, and finally Landra...she's SOOO funny!!! i have had alot of classes w/ her and she is SO smart...she's really nice to EVERYONE and she can always make me smile!
so those are our nominees for homecoming...which is really cool b/c i think all of them deserve getting nominated...but idk if im going to vote b/c i love them all...i cant decide! AHHH!
anywho..other than that...we decided to do our senior prank...which was SOO fun...but didnt really turn out b/c they took it all down before the rest of the school got into the halls....bummer...but thats ok i still had fun!
Our football team is doing really well this year and we've only lost one game so far....so i hope we win on homecoming...so we can be AWESOME-ER!!! im pumped about this game b/c i can go crazy on the field and act stupid...and thats my fav!
and in band there are about 40 people failing...which offically means people in band are STUPID! but i on the other hand, am makeing a 100 average in every class except one...and thats accounting and im making a 90...thats my lowest grade and im ticked!
life has been sucky other wise...i had the worst week ever last week and this week is going better, but not as good as the beginning of school...but other than THAT...lifes all good...im alive, i have an amazing guy to talk to and i have food. life is good.
anywho...thats the fill on my current life (besides the fact that i have SOO much homework!!) hope i didnt waste too much of your time...PEACE OUT..have an awesome day!
good day/bad day: eehh...
So i havnt blogged in awhile...so i thought i would today...
we got out of school at one...and its homecoming week..which means everything is hectic!!
So so for nominee's are Bretni , she's so super sweet and i love her! and she's the prettiest person i have ever seen in my entire life...no joke , Haley, she's a sweetheart too, i am in track w/ her and i've roomed w/ her every year...but she's the one i know the least about, Kenli, she's my bestie out of all of them! me and her are eachothers match for everything (except looks...she's gorgous!) and we've been running the same thing in track since our 7th grade year...i love her!, and finally Landra...she's SOOO funny!!! i have had alot of classes w/ her and she is SO smart...she's really nice to EVERYONE and she can always make me smile!
so those are our nominees for homecoming...which is really cool b/c i think all of them deserve getting nominated...but idk if im going to vote b/c i love them all...i cant decide! AHHH!
anywho..other than that...we decided to do our senior prank...which was SOO fun...but didnt really turn out b/c they took it all down before the rest of the school got into the halls....bummer...but thats ok i still had fun!
Our football team is doing really well this year and we've only lost one game so far....so i hope we win on homecoming...so we can be AWESOME-ER!!! im pumped about this game b/c i can go crazy on the field and act stupid...and thats my fav!
and in band there are about 40 people failing...which offically means people in band are STUPID! but i on the other hand, am makeing a 100 average in every class except one...and thats accounting and im making a 90...thats my lowest grade and im ticked!
life has been sucky other wise...i had the worst week ever last week and this week is going better, but not as good as the beginning of school...but other than THAT...lifes all good...im alive, i have an amazing guy to talk to and i have food. life is good.
anywho...thats the fill on my current life (besides the fact that i have SOO much homework!!) hope i didnt waste too much of your time...PEACE OUT..have an awesome day!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Becoming Strong.
mood: humble
day: tough
Today was different. That's really the only way I can put it. School was normal except that last night I was thinking of how I cuss alot...and i REALLY need to stop. I dont do it to get attention, I'm not sure why I do it, I guess I feel like some of those words are the only ones that fit or something and so I use them. But I really really really need to work on that. So I was thinking about that this morning, but other than that school was normal until huddle.
So at huddle a lady name Lynda came and talked to us.
a little background about Lynda, she was/is Kerri's best friend so that is very important to me to know that we have a connection through Kerri already. And if you dont know Kerri was one of my very very dear friends that died of melanoma about 2 years ago.
But Lynda came and talked to the senior huddle tonight. She talked about how we need to go out and find someone to bring to christ and to be a "wet buger" as she refered to it as, but we really need to stick to God and rely on him and pray, pray, pray.
She told 3 impacting stories that all had to do w/ the greatest commands, and she brought it together by reading them. It was really powerful. I kind of started tearing up right there on the spot b/c she had been asking for prayers and got some emails back and she read on from Kerri's mother, Mayrolyn. That was really touching to me b/c I know her and Kerri's 2 precious girls, Carlee and Jolee.
But on the way home I just couldn't get this terrible feeling out. I didnt know what to do, so I start tearing up, all the while listening to Casting Crowns. So I'm driving and crying. Trying to figure out what God is trying to tell me. And the song "Love Them Like Jesus" come on. So I begin to sing along and I'm thinking to myself, this is EXACTLY what I need to be doing. so many times in school you get sucked into the "usual" and you do things that you would NEVER do and you gossip and you cuss, and you ignore what God is trying to lay out in front of you. So the song is playing and I'm trying to sing along and I just stop singing and start bawling. Tears are streaming down my face..and im thinking how can I be different, how can I make a difference. And it hit me, when a person comes to me w/ a problem or a praise, I need to pray w/ them right there. I don't need to wait and put on the weekly prayer list, I need to be w/ them and pray w/ them right then and there. w/ the motherly gene I have instilled w/in me I need to be open to everyone and I need to love everyone like Jesus. I need to strive the christian girl I portray myself to be and I need to pray, w/o ceasing. When I got home I opened my bible and I opened to Psalm 37 and Joshua 1:9. those verses are so powerful for everything in my daily life. They have impacted my life so much. So from this day forward I want to strive to be a example in the fact that I want to pray w/ you when your going through that needs prayer. I want the WANT to be there for you and pray for you. And I also want to be more like Jesus, to beome stonger.
Love Them Like Jesus lyrics
The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart
You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you
Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus
The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away
You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you
Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you
So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus
So thats about it for now, I hope you have an amazing week. God bless.
day: tough
Today was different. That's really the only way I can put it. School was normal except that last night I was thinking of how I cuss alot...and i REALLY need to stop. I dont do it to get attention, I'm not sure why I do it, I guess I feel like some of those words are the only ones that fit or something and so I use them. But I really really really need to work on that. So I was thinking about that this morning, but other than that school was normal until huddle.
So at huddle a lady name Lynda came and talked to us.
a little background about Lynda, she was/is Kerri's best friend so that is very important to me to know that we have a connection through Kerri already. And if you dont know Kerri was one of my very very dear friends that died of melanoma about 2 years ago.
But Lynda came and talked to the senior huddle tonight. She talked about how we need to go out and find someone to bring to christ and to be a "wet buger" as she refered to it as, but we really need to stick to God and rely on him and pray, pray, pray.
She told 3 impacting stories that all had to do w/ the greatest commands, and she brought it together by reading them. It was really powerful. I kind of started tearing up right there on the spot b/c she had been asking for prayers and got some emails back and she read on from Kerri's mother, Mayrolyn. That was really touching to me b/c I know her and Kerri's 2 precious girls, Carlee and Jolee.
But on the way home I just couldn't get this terrible feeling out. I didnt know what to do, so I start tearing up, all the while listening to Casting Crowns. So I'm driving and crying. Trying to figure out what God is trying to tell me. And the song "Love Them Like Jesus" come on. So I begin to sing along and I'm thinking to myself, this is EXACTLY what I need to be doing. so many times in school you get sucked into the "usual" and you do things that you would NEVER do and you gossip and you cuss, and you ignore what God is trying to lay out in front of you. So the song is playing and I'm trying to sing along and I just stop singing and start bawling. Tears are streaming down my face..and im thinking how can I be different, how can I make a difference. And it hit me, when a person comes to me w/ a problem or a praise, I need to pray w/ them right there. I don't need to wait and put on the weekly prayer list, I need to be w/ them and pray w/ them right then and there. w/ the motherly gene I have instilled w/in me I need to be open to everyone and I need to love everyone like Jesus. I need to strive the christian girl I portray myself to be and I need to pray, w/o ceasing. When I got home I opened my bible and I opened to Psalm 37 and Joshua 1:9. those verses are so powerful for everything in my daily life. They have impacted my life so much. So from this day forward I want to strive to be a example in the fact that I want to pray w/ you when your going through that needs prayer. I want the WANT to be there for you and pray for you. And I also want to be more like Jesus, to beome stonger.
Love Them Like Jesus lyrics
The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart
You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you
Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus
The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away
You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you
Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you
So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus
So thats about it for now, I hope you have an amazing week. God bless.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
OH...my govnt class...
mood: ummm....eh..
good day/bad day: it was alright...
So today in Govnt today we had a very BIG discussion on abortion and the death penalty, but thats not all so let me explain...(these are my veiws and opinoins so im sorry if i offend anyone...but this is "my spot" so i guess i have the first amendment right?)
Since Govnt started this year all we've talked about is Liberal and Conservative. We've been talking big issues that are involved in deciding whether your a liberal or conservative...
the main issuse that we've gone over so far are: Censorship, environment protection/big buisenss, perosonal/govnt decision, legalizing weed, gay marriage, Palligame, gay adoption, trans. gendered children, gambling, military, gun control, abortion, and the death penalty.
lots to cover in three days huh...
so i 've been pretty nuetral on alot of that...well not nuetral, but mostly conservative..but not strong about any of it...not enough to argue at least. but the big arguement that i have is...on the liberal side your pro-choice, but against the death penalty...WHY WOULD YOU KILL AN INNOCENT BABY AND LET A KILLER GO!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!? that blows my mind...why would you do that??? that makes absolutly no sense to me!! our teacher tried to argue that there are "rehab" opportunities for the killers/theifs/pedafiles...but only like 8% of them actually want to change and get a second chance. so why then would you still want killers on the loose and sex offenders out there??? obviously im VERY conservative on this issue...cons. believe in pro-life and are for the death penalty. but in alitte bit if-ish about the death penalty...b/c if they dont want to change then i dont see why you let them back out into the world...but if they do want to change, and they actually do, then fine, but they have to be closely watched. but im still very conservative about this. i believe that if you have an abortion then the woman who makes that choice is KILLING her child. no matter whether she was raped or she just got knocked up, i believe she is killing her child. now whether or not she wants to keep it is another story. but if your willing to put yourself in danger of getting some nasty and crazy disease from having all sorts of chemicals put into your body to get rid of the baby, then why not just have the baby and have the reassurance the you will be fine and just give the baby up for adoption. ok...ill get off the soap box, but i just wanted to write that to let you all know where i stand on this issue....b/c clearly its up and coming and getting to be a big deal. anywho...i hope you all now have something to think about and i hope you have an AWESOME day!!! PEACE!!
good day/bad day: it was alright...
So today in Govnt today we had a very BIG discussion on abortion and the death penalty, but thats not all so let me explain...(these are my veiws and opinoins so im sorry if i offend anyone...but this is "my spot" so i guess i have the first amendment right?)
Since Govnt started this year all we've talked about is Liberal and Conservative. We've been talking big issues that are involved in deciding whether your a liberal or conservative...
the main issuse that we've gone over so far are: Censorship, environment protection/big buisenss, perosonal/govnt decision, legalizing weed, gay marriage, Palligame, gay adoption, trans. gendered children, gambling, military, gun control, abortion, and the death penalty.
lots to cover in three days huh...
so i 've been pretty nuetral on alot of that...well not nuetral, but mostly conservative..but not strong about any of it...not enough to argue at least. but the big arguement that i have is...on the liberal side your pro-choice, but against the death penalty...WHY WOULD YOU KILL AN INNOCENT BABY AND LET A KILLER GO!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!? that blows my mind...why would you do that??? that makes absolutly no sense to me!! our teacher tried to argue that there are "rehab" opportunities for the killers/theifs/pedafiles...but only like 8% of them actually want to change and get a second chance. so why then would you still want killers on the loose and sex offenders out there??? obviously im VERY conservative on this issue...cons. believe in pro-life and are for the death penalty. but in alitte bit if-ish about the death penalty...b/c if they dont want to change then i dont see why you let them back out into the world...but if they do want to change, and they actually do, then fine, but they have to be closely watched. but im still very conservative about this. i believe that if you have an abortion then the woman who makes that choice is KILLING her child. no matter whether she was raped or she just got knocked up, i believe she is killing her child. now whether or not she wants to keep it is another story. but if your willing to put yourself in danger of getting some nasty and crazy disease from having all sorts of chemicals put into your body to get rid of the baby, then why not just have the baby and have the reassurance the you will be fine and just give the baby up for adoption. ok...ill get off the soap box, but i just wanted to write that to let you all know where i stand on this issue....b/c clearly its up and coming and getting to be a big deal. anywho...i hope you all now have something to think about and i hope you have an AWESOME day!!! PEACE!!
Friday, September 7, 2007
FOOTBALL FRIDAYS!!
mood: tired, but excited at the same time...weird
good day/bad day: FREAKING AWESOME DAY!!!
QUOTES-
"Oh my gosh, i think im about to laugh!!"
"It's better to fun size it than not at all!!"
so today was pretty much the awesomest day EVER! so i woke up this morning, kinda groggy actually but good for the most part and i got ready and i went to school....
band was good and so were all the rest of my classes...
but in fourth period i found out that i got voted president of community problem solving...which may sound really really corny, but its really challenging...its crazy but im really excited about that....
the pep rally went well and some people were more enthusiastic about it this time, but not too many....but me and jess did good at announcing and all that good stuff....
so we finish up the pep rally and then our last period is athletics....and we had to run an 800, which is one full lap around the school...its was freaking hard but i ran it in a 2:45...so i was really excited. for being fat and out of shape i did pretty good.
so here is the most exciting part...i got home and my mom had gotten the mail for us and just laid it on the table....i was just looking through when i see this big cream colored envelop addressed to me from ACU...and i was like what is this..hmmm...
and i opened it and it was my ACCEPTANCE LETTER TO ACU!!!! WHHOOOOOO HOOOOOO!!! im pumped! so excited...now i dont have to worry about getting into college...haha
so at the game tonight...we had ALOT of fun...omg...it was so fun! if you want to see pics then you can check out my facebook! but tonight i ran the spirit flag and danced around like an idiot and had SOOO much fun....
everyone was talking to me like they all knew me....its was really funny....b/c i didnt know people actually liked me...HAHA! but i guess they do....hehe
well we did lose to the steers....but it was a really good game....it was 0-0 in the first 3 quarters, and in the last quarter they scored twice, but it was good, we held them off as long as we could. and plus graham is where Colt McCoy's little brother plays football, and thats where he is from so you gotta give us some slack!
but the game was good over all and i cant wait for the next one! well good night everyone!!
PEACE!!
Thursday, September 6, 2007
GO FRIDAY NIGHT!!!
mood: perdy good...
good day/bad day: hmm...
football....hmm...friday....it all fits...
so today me and vic (my friend that is going to run the spirit flags w/) made jerk shirts!! whoo hoo!!! im so excited about tomorrow! our first home game....as a senior! im pumped...totally pumped! so ill have to post a picture of us tomorrow...we're going to be so awesome! our shirts rock my face off and we painted bandana's and they're awesome too!!
today we registered for our college classes...that was loades of fun! i've never taken so much money to school w/ me in all my life....it was crazy! and i also had to pay for our senior girls football shirts we ordered and i had a PALS fee i had to pay...so i just basically sucked all the money out of my mom...wow....so much...
wow im so tired...i bet none of this makes sense...haha...k im going to take a nap...peace out and have an awesome evening...TOOTLES!!
good day/bad day: hmm...
football....hmm...friday....it all fits...
so today me and vic (my friend that is going to run the spirit flags w/) made jerk shirts!! whoo hoo!!! im so excited about tomorrow! our first home game....as a senior! im pumped...totally pumped! so ill have to post a picture of us tomorrow...we're going to be so awesome! our shirts rock my face off and we painted bandana's and they're awesome too!!
today we registered for our college classes...that was loades of fun! i've never taken so much money to school w/ me in all my life....it was crazy! and i also had to pay for our senior girls football shirts we ordered and i had a PALS fee i had to pay...so i just basically sucked all the money out of my mom...wow....so much...
wow im so tired...i bet none of this makes sense...haha...k im going to take a nap...peace out and have an awesome evening...TOOTLES!!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
you know its going to be a good day when...
mood: ambitious
good day/ bad day: AWESOME DAY!!!
So i woke up this morning, the usual...6 a.m. and i go jogging. it was beautiful out. though it was still dark, it was very very lightly misting and cool and just amazing. i could have jogged all day like that. and i always put my iPod on shuffle when i jog...but this morning it pick Spice Girls....really random, but it put my at a REALLY good jogging pace...so that was good.
so i get back to the house and get ready for school. (sammi stayed the night by the way) so me and her decided last night that we wanted to dress up and be cute today, so we did...and yes i think we were freaking cute!! anywho, i get to school and i swear today was like the ideal school day for any teen...it was a dream...it was soooo good!! So band is first and i walk in and we're staying inside today (which is always a good thing b/c i dont like carrying my drum ALL the way down to the parking lot we practice on..grr..) anywho...so we're just running through our music and we got out early so we had some time just to chill and hang out...so that was good...then i got to biology, which is supposed to be my hardest class...but we get there and he just rambled about the assignment that we had last friday, and we didnt do any work or have homework, and that is ALWAYS a plus....
SOOO....today is tuesday, which means its english today during 3 and 4 period. and you ALWAYS know it a good thing when your professer walks in with a BIG whataburger bag full of breakfast burritos....OMG! we were all pumped! so our english professor bought us breakfast and let us eat and then we started reading "Beowulf"...which is easy b/c its just reading and we only had like a page of reading for homework...but we dont have that class till thursday so we have 2 days....so that was def my best period....
then in my 5th period...which is PALS and i just sat there and listened to my iPod and read my book, b/c we never do anything in there anyway...so that was relaxing. then i went to luch...which its always good to eat...so i did.
6 and 7 are my blow off classes so i dont do anything in there anyway so i didnt do anything in there today either...whoopy..
but when i got to athletics, we were doing our regular stretches and warm ups and one of the coaches came up to me and one of my really good friends kenli and asked us to pick out the new track uniforms they're getting for us this year...i was like YEAH!!!! duh....so i didnt have to go work out and we picked the most AWESOME uniforms EVER!!! im so pumped ...i cant wait to wear them!! AHHHH!! so excited!
after school was out i had a community problem sloving meeting...and that was cool...mainly just sat and talked...it was cool...then i can home and it randomly started poring rain and now im sitting here eating grapes! so it's been an AWESOME day! whoo hoo! anywho...i've got to go finish the rest of my day...tootles!! PEACE!
Monday, September 3, 2007
Tough Times....
Mood: mmm...not a good one...but not a crappy one either
good day/bad day: a'ight...
So today i woke up at like 9 and got ready to go bail hay...well actually we were putting tons of hay under a huge pumpkin patch....but its still hard labor and i got dirty. anywho, so i did that this morning...all the while talking to drew about love...and that was a heck of a great conversation....i loved it!! but then we went to whataburger and chilled for awhile and ate french fries and talked. after that i went to sammi's and picked out what we were going to wear tomorrow...mostly b/c both of us want to dress up so its more of a big deal...anywho...
when we got back, she was on the computer and i was just laying on the couch just chillin...i was almost asleep...when justin called me...grrr.
i was laying there thinking what the heck he would want to come over for...he sounded kind of upset but i dont ask questions....so i didnt...but when he got here...he handed me a big shoe box and a large picture album i had given him awhile back when we were dating....all he said to me was.."i was going to throw this away, but i decided to give it all to you and i knew laynette would go through it if i kept it" and he gave me a hug and left. i stood there for a few seconds and went back inside....at first i was like what am i going to do w/ all this...but then it sunk in that he just gave me back everything i had basically given him. HOW FREAKING RUDE! i know i dont have any feelings for him or anything, but it hurts so much to know that someone you cared for so much at one time just basically wiped you out. and i know i kinda did that to him...but he did not have to give all of that back to me. i cried....and i haven't cried in quite a long time, until today...and of course it has to be b/c of him....GGGGRRRRRRRRRR!! anywho....thats the gist of my day...it really sucked actually but brownies and good company is always a good thing to have around when crap happens....
anywho i hope everyone that reads this has a lot better day than me....PEACE OUT!!!
good day/bad day: a'ight...
So today i woke up at like 9 and got ready to go bail hay...well actually we were putting tons of hay under a huge pumpkin patch....but its still hard labor and i got dirty. anywho, so i did that this morning...all the while talking to drew about love...and that was a heck of a great conversation....i loved it!! but then we went to whataburger and chilled for awhile and ate french fries and talked. after that i went to sammi's and picked out what we were going to wear tomorrow...mostly b/c both of us want to dress up so its more of a big deal...anywho...
when we got back, she was on the computer and i was just laying on the couch just chillin...i was almost asleep...when justin called me...grrr.
i was laying there thinking what the heck he would want to come over for...he sounded kind of upset but i dont ask questions....so i didnt...but when he got here...he handed me a big shoe box and a large picture album i had given him awhile back when we were dating....all he said to me was.."i was going to throw this away, but i decided to give it all to you and i knew laynette would go through it if i kept it" and he gave me a hug and left. i stood there for a few seconds and went back inside....at first i was like what am i going to do w/ all this...but then it sunk in that he just gave me back everything i had basically given him. HOW FREAKING RUDE! i know i dont have any feelings for him or anything, but it hurts so much to know that someone you cared for so much at one time just basically wiped you out. and i know i kinda did that to him...but he did not have to give all of that back to me. i cried....and i haven't cried in quite a long time, until today...and of course it has to be b/c of him....GGGGRRRRRRRRRR!! anywho....thats the gist of my day...it really sucked actually but brownies and good company is always a good thing to have around when crap happens....
anywho i hope everyone that reads this has a lot better day than me....PEACE OUT!!!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Random thoughts....
mood: merrr....
good day/bad day: ehh...
So today was sunday.
church was really good this morning. i want to the nursery and kept my precious babies...and put the sweetest baby girl to sleep for like 30 min....i was so excited!! and this afternoon after eating delicious lunch i took a nap..and almost over slept..but thank gooness for mommies!! then i went to lifeteam...which is the best place in the world to be!! there were so many ppl there tonight! we had a full house! but it was sooo good. we talked about Heaven and heaven...if that makes sense. but anywho...the food and the fellowship was good as always and talking the LORDS supper was great as well.
So during lifeteam we were talking abour Heaven and we went through specific verses and just basically threw out our views of Heaven and heaven. i cant write exactly what all we discussed b/c no one really knows what is to come. but key points that stuck out to me was that in the Bible it says that we will all go TOGETHER...that just amazes me...i like that thought...and the fact that God ill wipe away EVERY tear. that just makes me so joyous b/c i have had SOOO many tears...its such a good feeling when someone is there to wipe away your tears and tell you they love and that its all going to be ok....but there is no better thought than knowing that God himself will do that for you someday. mmmm...good feeling.
after our discussion we ate supper....mmm mmm...it was sooo good. just sitting and talking and eat awesome food...the discussion i was involved in was w/ drew, jerimiah, t, stacie, and some new guy named travis....and it went from strange physological diseases to everything that is wrong w/ all the starwars and lord of the rings movies to college classes to male gay underwear stores that drew never ment to go into...(long funny story...haha). but it was really good and funny....then when we got everyone back into the den we had the LORDS supper and prayed. it was really good. just to sit and share such a special thing w/ my big ol' family...the body of christ. mmm....another good feeling. and of course having ethan in the middle of it all asking for more of the bread of Jesus and saying that he's going to ride the tractor....once again another good feeling. so much love and care for one another in one safe place. i love it!!!
So tomorrow we dont have school...but i still have to get up early and bail hay....yippy. but i guess it will be fun anyhow...but i think this week will be good. my first biology assignment is due tuesday...but i already finished it...so i feel on top of things. so im ready for anything....i think. anywho....not much more to say to be honest. kinda boring right now. hope you all have an awesome week and night!!! PEACE OUT!!!
good day/bad day: ehh...
So today was sunday.
church was really good this morning. i want to the nursery and kept my precious babies...and put the sweetest baby girl to sleep for like 30 min....i was so excited!! and this afternoon after eating delicious lunch i took a nap..and almost over slept..but thank gooness for mommies!! then i went to lifeteam...which is the best place in the world to be!! there were so many ppl there tonight! we had a full house! but it was sooo good. we talked about Heaven and heaven...if that makes sense. but anywho...the food and the fellowship was good as always and talking the LORDS supper was great as well.
So during lifeteam we were talking abour Heaven and we went through specific verses and just basically threw out our views of Heaven and heaven. i cant write exactly what all we discussed b/c no one really knows what is to come. but key points that stuck out to me was that in the Bible it says that we will all go TOGETHER...that just amazes me...i like that thought...and the fact that God ill wipe away EVERY tear. that just makes me so joyous b/c i have had SOOO many tears...its such a good feeling when someone is there to wipe away your tears and tell you they love and that its all going to be ok....but there is no better thought than knowing that God himself will do that for you someday. mmmm...good feeling.
after our discussion we ate supper....mmm mmm...it was sooo good. just sitting and talking and eat awesome food...the discussion i was involved in was w/ drew, jerimiah, t, stacie, and some new guy named travis....and it went from strange physological diseases to everything that is wrong w/ all the starwars and lord of the rings movies to college classes to male gay underwear stores that drew never ment to go into...(long funny story...haha). but it was really good and funny....then when we got everyone back into the den we had the LORDS supper and prayed. it was really good. just to sit and share such a special thing w/ my big ol' family...the body of christ. mmm....another good feeling. and of course having ethan in the middle of it all asking for more of the bread of Jesus and saying that he's going to ride the tractor....once again another good feeling. so much love and care for one another in one safe place. i love it!!!
So tomorrow we dont have school...but i still have to get up early and bail hay....yippy. but i guess it will be fun anyhow...but i think this week will be good. my first biology assignment is due tuesday...but i already finished it...so i feel on top of things. so im ready for anything....i think. anywho....not much more to say to be honest. kinda boring right now. hope you all have an awesome week and night!!! PEACE OUT!!!
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Slow Fade
So i'm a BIG casting crowns fan...and i got the new CD..The Alter and The Door....and #3 is an amazing song! oh my gracious...its SOO good...its basically talking about how everything just slowly fades...but i guess you can find out for yourself when you listen to the song...but here are the lyrics....so just read this and keep your mind open....
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful litte feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have truned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be carful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astay
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white turn to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Its shorter then you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white turn to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
so thats the song...its soooo good!!! hope you like it...and i hope it gives you something to think about! have an awesome day! PEACE
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful litte feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have truned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be carful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astay
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white turn to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Its shorter then you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white turn to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
so thats the song...its soooo good!!! hope you like it...and i hope it gives you something to think about! have an awesome day! PEACE
Thursday, August 30, 2007
hmmmm....
mood: accomplished
good day/bad day: GREAT DAY!
so i havnt written in a few days, but that's ok b/c there hasnt been much to write about...just normal days...wake up...jog...eat breakfast...go to school...first is band, second is botany, third and fourth is dual credit gov't and english, fifth is PALS, lunch, sixth is housing, seventh is accounting, and eighth is ATHLETICS!! whew...and then i go home and be bored b/c i never have homework....
so pretty boring...but today i felt like i did have something worth writing about...
but before you get to reading what i really want to write about...in athletcis today we ran 8 100's and in my group...i got first and lapped a few people....and i felt really good about it b/c i wasnt going my fastest and it was my first semi-sprint all year...EXCITING!! that always pumps me up....and now i feel accomplished....anywho....
yesterday actually, the new casting crowns cd came out...i was listening to it, thinking alot about things i have done in my life, and things that have happened. its kind of a depressing cd but its SOOO good...i highly recommend it. but anywho...i was thinking of a race i had ran about 4 months ago. it still burns inside the very memory, the very feeling of loseing that race...i didnt actually lose, but i lost inside...i didnt get our team to the regional qualifiers....we had gone every year, not one year have we NOT gone...and for some dang reason coach puts me as anchor...something i have NEVER done before. i have ALWAYS been third leg...but for some reason it played out that way. and i still hurt inside....but that also led me to thinking about another issue that is very dear to my heart...
and thats drew. (actually he's probably the only one that reads this..) but as he knows and as many ppl know...i am so broken...so hurt from my past relationship. as much as i would like to think that im getting better and that im really working on really just getting it all pushed back to where it doesnt affect me....its still there burning intensly on my heart. i find myself wondering if someone will really treat me the way i want to be treated or if i should have been treated like that...and if someone hurts me again then its ok. but i know its not. but for some reason i cant bring myself to trust that he would WANT to want to be good to me. i cant imagine someone wanting me for me. its not that im bad or anything, i just dont see how someone would want to...maybe thats how ppl drive away ppl. idk...but i also found myself thinking...well if he doesnt want to talk to me...i guess thats ok...b/c he can do what he wants...i'd just want him to let me know if he's tired of me already...its almost like im expecting it to happen b/c it happened to me SO many times...i would be weird if it didnt happen...but the thing that always gets me is the fact that he is SO sweet to me...it like im in a fairy tale or something...like would God really want me to be the one that gets to be w/ him??? like im not worthy...wouldnt someone that hasnt hurt God as much deserve him...not i...but i guess thats what God wants...i mean im NOT going to complain...its God. i just dont see why God would want to bless me so richly...i dont deserve that. but im loveing every moment i get w/ this wonderful guy! i always find myself on the edge of my seat thinking about him. hmmm...such a good feeling. my mind is still blown at the fact that he wants to talk to me....or it seems like he wants to talk to me....i hate the fact that i always have that doubt. but i guess until the right time it'll be that way. hmmm...i hope he can find it in his heart to deal w/ me....i hope so. ahhh...well ill keep day dreaming and taking it easy...anyone who reads this take it easy as well!! have an awesome rest of the day!!! PEACE LOVE AND COOKIES!!!!!!
good day/bad day: GREAT DAY!
so i havnt written in a few days, but that's ok b/c there hasnt been much to write about...just normal days...wake up...jog...eat breakfast...go to school...first is band, second is botany, third and fourth is dual credit gov't and english, fifth is PALS, lunch, sixth is housing, seventh is accounting, and eighth is ATHLETICS!! whew...and then i go home and be bored b/c i never have homework....
so pretty boring...but today i felt like i did have something worth writing about...
but before you get to reading what i really want to write about...in athletcis today we ran 8 100's and in my group...i got first and lapped a few people....and i felt really good about it b/c i wasnt going my fastest and it was my first semi-sprint all year...EXCITING!! that always pumps me up....and now i feel accomplished....anywho....
yesterday actually, the new casting crowns cd came out...i was listening to it, thinking alot about things i have done in my life, and things that have happened. its kind of a depressing cd but its SOOO good...i highly recommend it. but anywho...i was thinking of a race i had ran about 4 months ago. it still burns inside the very memory, the very feeling of loseing that race...i didnt actually lose, but i lost inside...i didnt get our team to the regional qualifiers....we had gone every year, not one year have we NOT gone...and for some dang reason coach puts me as anchor...something i have NEVER done before. i have ALWAYS been third leg...but for some reason it played out that way. and i still hurt inside....but that also led me to thinking about another issue that is very dear to my heart...
and thats drew. (actually he's probably the only one that reads this..) but as he knows and as many ppl know...i am so broken...so hurt from my past relationship. as much as i would like to think that im getting better and that im really working on really just getting it all pushed back to where it doesnt affect me....its still there burning intensly on my heart. i find myself wondering if someone will really treat me the way i want to be treated or if i should have been treated like that...and if someone hurts me again then its ok. but i know its not. but for some reason i cant bring myself to trust that he would WANT to want to be good to me. i cant imagine someone wanting me for me. its not that im bad or anything, i just dont see how someone would want to...maybe thats how ppl drive away ppl. idk...but i also found myself thinking...well if he doesnt want to talk to me...i guess thats ok...b/c he can do what he wants...i'd just want him to let me know if he's tired of me already...its almost like im expecting it to happen b/c it happened to me SO many times...i would be weird if it didnt happen...but the thing that always gets me is the fact that he is SO sweet to me...it like im in a fairy tale or something...like would God really want me to be the one that gets to be w/ him??? like im not worthy...wouldnt someone that hasnt hurt God as much deserve him...not i...but i guess thats what God wants...i mean im NOT going to complain...its God. i just dont see why God would want to bless me so richly...i dont deserve that. but im loveing every moment i get w/ this wonderful guy! i always find myself on the edge of my seat thinking about him. hmmm...such a good feeling. my mind is still blown at the fact that he wants to talk to me....or it seems like he wants to talk to me....i hate the fact that i always have that doubt. but i guess until the right time it'll be that way. hmmm...i hope he can find it in his heart to deal w/ me....i hope so. ahhh...well ill keep day dreaming and taking it easy...anyone who reads this take it easy as well!! have an awesome rest of the day!!! PEACE LOVE AND COOKIES!!!!!!
Monday, August 27, 2007
The first day of the last year....
mood: relaxed and energetic
good day/bad day: pretty dang good day!!
QUOTES: "It caught on fire, then there were donuts..."
"It's our last first day!!"
"You know a coin with a queen head or something....uhh you mean a quarter.....uhhh ya"
SOOO...my first day of school was rockin'!!
woke up this morning bright and early to the time of 5:15...i can honestly say that it probably wasnt too excited to see my face....but i saw the time! got up and did an ab and calf work out and did my PT work out...then i had a quite time and turned to numbers 7....it was talking about offerings and stuff like that. i thought about how we need to make sacrifices in our own lives and not just like...ok im going to sacrifice my time..but those ppl gave up the very best they had to God...so i thought that i needed to sacrifice my best and glorify God in everything i do....it was deep and really good.
then i get to school...of course like all first days, its a mad house! all the fish are like WHAT DO I DO....AHHH!! and they're all freaking out and such...but i knew what i was doing and i was a girl on a mission....to get my freaking parking permitt...and i did...yaye me!
so first period was band...thats always ok...b/c everyone knows the routine of things...second is Botany...a little dif. lots of reading and its a college class so...the test are going to be tougher...but thats ok b/c i like the teacher..he's really chill. then i have my dual credit courses...here's how it goes down...
MW-govn't and economics.....
TTh-English...
and we dont have class on fridays for some odd reason...but we have blocked schedule so 3 and 4 are college...so i have all my college classes right in a row....but im ok w/ that.
anywho....after that i have PALS...which will be AWESOME!! i love the teacher and the girls in the class...b/c its and all girls class...but not on purpose...it just happened that way...anywho...then i have interior design...again..an all girls class...crazy huh!?! k then i have accounting...which is crazy b/c there are only 4 ppl in that class...me and ashley m..and 2 guys...its going to be so fun this year!! then i have athletics..and thats always good for me!!
i have B lunch w/ the rest of the whole dang school...its never that crowded! but im ok b/c i have a seat and im not sharing this year!! yaye!
So basically that was my first day of school! it was rockin and i think it will be really good....hardly any homework (except for college assignments) and lots of fun!! i hope yall have an awesome day!! tootles! PEACE!
good day/bad day: pretty dang good day!!
QUOTES: "It caught on fire, then there were donuts..."
"It's our last first day!!"
"You know a coin with a queen head or something....uhh you mean a quarter.....uhhh ya"
SOOO...my first day of school was rockin'!!
woke up this morning bright and early to the time of 5:15...i can honestly say that it probably wasnt too excited to see my face....but i saw the time! got up and did an ab and calf work out and did my PT work out...then i had a quite time and turned to numbers 7....it was talking about offerings and stuff like that. i thought about how we need to make sacrifices in our own lives and not just like...ok im going to sacrifice my time..but those ppl gave up the very best they had to God...so i thought that i needed to sacrifice my best and glorify God in everything i do....it was deep and really good.
then i get to school...of course like all first days, its a mad house! all the fish are like WHAT DO I DO....AHHH!! and they're all freaking out and such...but i knew what i was doing and i was a girl on a mission....to get my freaking parking permitt...and i did...yaye me!
so first period was band...thats always ok...b/c everyone knows the routine of things...second is Botany...a little dif. lots of reading and its a college class so...the test are going to be tougher...but thats ok b/c i like the teacher..he's really chill. then i have my dual credit courses...here's how it goes down...
MW-govn't and economics.....
TTh-English...
and we dont have class on fridays for some odd reason...but we have blocked schedule so 3 and 4 are college...so i have all my college classes right in a row....but im ok w/ that.
anywho....after that i have PALS...which will be AWESOME!! i love the teacher and the girls in the class...b/c its and all girls class...but not on purpose...it just happened that way...anywho...then i have interior design...again..an all girls class...crazy huh!?! k then i have accounting...which is crazy b/c there are only 4 ppl in that class...me and ashley m..and 2 guys...its going to be so fun this year!! then i have athletics..and thats always good for me!!
i have B lunch w/ the rest of the whole dang school...its never that crowded! but im ok b/c i have a seat and im not sharing this year!! yaye!
So basically that was my first day of school! it was rockin and i think it will be really good....hardly any homework (except for college assignments) and lots of fun!! i hope yall have an awesome day!! tootles! PEACE!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Closing the door...
mood: REALLY tired...and excited...but mostly tired...
good day/bad day: perdy good...
So today is the closer of my summer 2007. i've alread talked alot about what my summer was like and what i look forward to doing this next year.
but today really hit home for me...knowing im about to start the old high school routine of things and being busy, stressed, excited, mad, and happy all at the same time again. OH what fun..
being at lifeteam tonight really helped to get ready. eventhough nothing we talked about had to do w/ anything im about to go through or anything like that...it just put me at ease.
just talking w/ my family and acting like a family...knowing there is this very special group of ppl there for me and to help me through anything i need help w/. they are ppl i can trust.
such a good feeling.
anywho...while at lifeteam...we do act just like a family....so lots of jokes and great things like that go on....my favorite quote from tonight was.."Drew vs. corporate America" HAHA if you have questions about that one...ill tell you all about it if you ask...hehe...it was REALLY funny...but i guess you also have to know drew to get it...so it may not be as funny to you...but i got a BIG laugh out of it...
anywho...about my day as a whole...started out this morning working in the nursery for 4 hours...i really do love it there...but not for that long when you have 6 crying babies by yourself it just doesnt work. but i had alot of fun..as i always do and i didnt fall asleep on the job...and thats the important thing...eventhough i put one precious baby to sleep..and i was just sitting there rocking....so relaxing...but i didnt go to sleep.
so a gold star for me! anywho..after that i had to go to a brazil meeting we were having and i sat in for a few then went home and took a 2 hour nap....IT WAS WONDERFUL!! omg it was great...then of course got up and went to the best place in the world...lifeteam...its was sooo good...just fellowshiping and taking communion w/ my family...its was soo good. i loved and will always love it...mmmm
...sigh...lots of emotional ups and downs today...its crazy what emotions can do to your soul...they just wear you out!! wow...im exausted. i guess just a few things are really getting to me...school and all that come w/...like stress...not being able to talk to the best guy on earth...band..grrr...homework...everything...
and of course my who love life situation....its so good...but its very bitter sweet...mostly good though..ahhh...very good.
anywho...im way super tired...so im going...tootles!!
good day/bad day: perdy good...
So today is the closer of my summer 2007. i've alread talked alot about what my summer was like and what i look forward to doing this next year.
but today really hit home for me...knowing im about to start the old high school routine of things and being busy, stressed, excited, mad, and happy all at the same time again. OH what fun..
being at lifeteam tonight really helped to get ready. eventhough nothing we talked about had to do w/ anything im about to go through or anything like that...it just put me at ease.
just talking w/ my family and acting like a family...knowing there is this very special group of ppl there for me and to help me through anything i need help w/. they are ppl i can trust.
such a good feeling.
anywho...while at lifeteam...we do act just like a family....so lots of jokes and great things like that go on....my favorite quote from tonight was.."Drew vs. corporate America" HAHA if you have questions about that one...ill tell you all about it if you ask...hehe...it was REALLY funny...but i guess you also have to know drew to get it...so it may not be as funny to you...but i got a BIG laugh out of it...
anywho...about my day as a whole...started out this morning working in the nursery for 4 hours...i really do love it there...but not for that long when you have 6 crying babies by yourself it just doesnt work. but i had alot of fun..as i always do and i didnt fall asleep on the job...and thats the important thing...eventhough i put one precious baby to sleep..and i was just sitting there rocking....so relaxing...but i didnt go to sleep.
so a gold star for me! anywho..after that i had to go to a brazil meeting we were having and i sat in for a few then went home and took a 2 hour nap....IT WAS WONDERFUL!! omg it was great...then of course got up and went to the best place in the world...lifeteam...its was sooo good...just fellowshiping and taking communion w/ my family...its was soo good. i loved and will always love it...mmmm
...sigh...lots of emotional ups and downs today...its crazy what emotions can do to your soul...they just wear you out!! wow...im exausted. i guess just a few things are really getting to me...school and all that come w/...like stress...not being able to talk to the best guy on earth...band..grrr...homework...everything...
and of course my who love life situation....its so good...but its very bitter sweet...mostly good though..ahhh...very good.
anywho...im way super tired...so im going...tootles!!
Saturday, August 25, 2007
my boring saturday...
mood: stressed and tired
good day/bad day: ehhh...
So today is sat. and i got the best wake up call ever! woke up around 8 something to the sound of "better than me" playing in my ear. my initial thought was....thats not my alarm tone...then i was like...OH MY GOODNESS! ITS SAMMI!! sammi ball called me at like 8:15 this morning and wanted to talk...i was like are you ok? this is really abnormal...she just doesnt do that...but she wanted to talk and she ended up coming over later on...but i was like WHOA! is was crazy...
most of the day i just chilled at my house...but i think the highlight...besides drew calling me on his lunch break...was watching 'beauty and the beast' I FREAKING LOVE THAT MOVIE!! wow i love that movie so much....not just b/c its a good ol' kids movie but its a love movie...its soooo sweet! love it love it love it!!
so after i chilled around my house... my mother, my sister and i all went into abilene and just hung out and picked up some last min. stuff for school. but thats not the moral of this story...
while out wondering around the store...my sister (which this story is about) decides to get in one of her 'i feel like being selfish and difficult and make everyone's life a liveing hell' (s'cuse the french) kind of moods...
so my mom was asking her what she would like to get for her lunches...but to quote her she said "beth was do you want for lunch" but beth being the snob she was being said...it what i need for lunch not what i want....b/c that makes me sound selfish....so we're like ok...what do you need...and she got SOO mad that my mom used the wrong word and she got in a HUGE argument and it was really bad...but that just explains how mad my sis can get....but that went on and my mom straight up told her that she was tired of it...and that didnt go over too well either...so i had to jump in and calm them both down...wow that wasnt easy.
so thats that...
and its really super late and im about to start talking to drew....so ill go now...PEACE OUT!!
good day/bad day: ehhh...
So today is sat. and i got the best wake up call ever! woke up around 8 something to the sound of "better than me" playing in my ear. my initial thought was....thats not my alarm tone...then i was like...OH MY GOODNESS! ITS SAMMI!! sammi ball called me at like 8:15 this morning and wanted to talk...i was like are you ok? this is really abnormal...she just doesnt do that...but she wanted to talk and she ended up coming over later on...but i was like WHOA! is was crazy...
most of the day i just chilled at my house...but i think the highlight...besides drew calling me on his lunch break...was watching 'beauty and the beast' I FREAKING LOVE THAT MOVIE!! wow i love that movie so much....not just b/c its a good ol' kids movie but its a love movie...its soooo sweet! love it love it love it!!
so after i chilled around my house... my mother, my sister and i all went into abilene and just hung out and picked up some last min. stuff for school. but thats not the moral of this story...
while out wondering around the store...my sister (which this story is about) decides to get in one of her 'i feel like being selfish and difficult and make everyone's life a liveing hell' (s'cuse the french) kind of moods...
so my mom was asking her what she would like to get for her lunches...but to quote her she said "beth was do you want for lunch" but beth being the snob she was being said...it what i need for lunch not what i want....b/c that makes me sound selfish....so we're like ok...what do you need...and she got SOO mad that my mom used the wrong word and she got in a HUGE argument and it was really bad...but that just explains how mad my sis can get....but that went on and my mom straight up told her that she was tired of it...and that didnt go over too well either...so i had to jump in and calm them both down...wow that wasnt easy.
so thats that...
and its really super late and im about to start talking to drew....so ill go now...PEACE OUT!!
Friday, August 24, 2007
Fettachinii is SOO good...
So this afternoon, me and sammi went out and shopped for clothes for school...that was fun! but of course if was fun b/c we're girls and girls do that....but then we went to Arby's. OH MY GOODNESS...they're food is soo good. i cant get over it. or maybe i just REALLY like their curly fries...idk but seriously i highly recommend it. its soo good. i've heard that alot of ppl dont like it...which is weird b/c what is there not to like about fries, milkshakes and soda's ????
but anywho,
After we got back, we stopped by her house and she got a few things she needed for work and i got a formal dress that i was going to try on. its gorgeous by the way...but maybe not so much on me...hmm idk. maybe ill let you decide...i took a pic, just so i could see the whole thing...its not too bad i guess...but whatever. anyway, we got back to my house and just chilled she swiched phones and i got on the computer for awhile. when she was finally done w/ that, she went to work and i laid down and took a nap...oh my goodness, naps are amazing....i love them! but when i woke up...my house was completely empty, which was kinda creepy, so i called mom up and was like...dude where are you? and she was like...umm cleaning out the stand for the games...i have beth and dads in san antonio...i was like...oh. hehe....well anyway this is all pointless info that no one needs to know...but i figured for the record i'd write what i did on my last friday of summer 2007....thats great...
BUT...
on a more important note...i've been thinking alot about this upcoming school year and about drew...hmm that not really abnormal, but specific things about this specific dude...but first about the year...
so im a senior...finally! WHOO HOO!! i think im going to have an awesome year! but i think my homework load just tripled and i think im going to busier than i EVER have before...
for starters im in marching band and that takes alot of time from the weekends and on tuesdays...b/c we have to go to all the football games and we have marching contest...so thats that...and also in the fall i do fall production, so ill have theatre to pack into my busy schedule. at least i dont do a sport in the fall...i used to do basketballl...but NO WAY! that sport is NOT for me...anywho...so 3 college classes, marching band, and theatre for the first semester..
second semester...hmmm...well OBVIOUSLY track...thats a biggie...and that will take most of my time especially when the season actually starts. and ill have theatre again...for OAP and all the senior stuff that goes on before graduation...also all this on top of 3 college classes. so the spring is usually the busiest so i've got some time to work up some stress relievers.
but also, this is just school, i also have church and family and friends...i hate to say that i have to schedule my family and friends in...but i kind of do or i wont have anytime for them...and that sucks!
So...
im deciding im going to set some goals for myself this year...
*being healthy....not only in working out, but in eating and drinking...more carbs less fat, more water!!
*getting up in the morning and running for like 5-10 min. and having a quite time. just to be w/ God and think about the day and to just relax.
*having a set time to come home and do homework....i know that sounds retarded..but you've got to get in the habbit...or ill never do it...im a BIG procrastinator..
*i want to really strive to be Jesus to everyone. i've really thought about that this summer...and i think that if i really work on that then ill become closer to him...and i wont have quite so many ppl hate me. ;)
*i want to budget...that something im NOT good at at all...and i really need to start working on that BEFORE i get to college...that would be a really good thing....so im really going to strive to do that.
*i want to make all A's in all my college classes...i almost did last year, and it KILLED me to know that i almost did but i didnt...you know....so i want to do it this year FOR SURE!
*have the best track season yet! i had a pretty stinking good one my soph. year but i want to really strive to do better this year...i think the whole diet and running thing will help alot w/ that one...
*i want to really be totally and COMPLETELY honest w/ EVERYONE this year...im usually good at that. im one to hide things..mostly b/c i dont have much to hide but i just really want ace that concept.
so there are 8 of them...and im sure there are more....but these are the ones i REALLY REALLY want to strive for and succeed at. that would rock my world if i could do all of these...and im going to pray that God will help to do so. i just have to keep myself accountable.
SO...whoever you are reading this...you should get back to doing more important things...like your life or something. anywho...sorry for taking up your time...have an awesome day!! PEACE!!
but anywho,
After we got back, we stopped by her house and she got a few things she needed for work and i got a formal dress that i was going to try on. its gorgeous by the way...but maybe not so much on me...hmm idk. maybe ill let you decide...i took a pic, just so i could see the whole thing...its not too bad i guess...but whatever. anyway, we got back to my house and just chilled she swiched phones and i got on the computer for awhile. when she was finally done w/ that, she went to work and i laid down and took a nap...oh my goodness, naps are amazing....i love them! but when i woke up...my house was completely empty, which was kinda creepy, so i called mom up and was like...dude where are you? and she was like...umm cleaning out the stand for the games...i have beth and dads in san antonio...i was like...oh. hehe....well anyway this is all pointless info that no one needs to know...but i figured for the record i'd write what i did on my last friday of summer 2007....thats great...
BUT...
on a more important note...i've been thinking alot about this upcoming school year and about drew...hmm that not really abnormal, but specific things about this specific dude...but first about the year...
so im a senior...finally! WHOO HOO!! i think im going to have an awesome year! but i think my homework load just tripled and i think im going to busier than i EVER have before...
for starters im in marching band and that takes alot of time from the weekends and on tuesdays...b/c we have to go to all the football games and we have marching contest...so thats that...and also in the fall i do fall production, so ill have theatre to pack into my busy schedule. at least i dont do a sport in the fall...i used to do basketballl...but NO WAY! that sport is NOT for me...anywho...so 3 college classes, marching band, and theatre for the first semester..
second semester...hmmm...well OBVIOUSLY track...thats a biggie...and that will take most of my time especially when the season actually starts. and ill have theatre again...for OAP and all the senior stuff that goes on before graduation...also all this on top of 3 college classes. so the spring is usually the busiest so i've got some time to work up some stress relievers.
but also, this is just school, i also have church and family and friends...i hate to say that i have to schedule my family and friends in...but i kind of do or i wont have anytime for them...and that sucks!
So...
im deciding im going to set some goals for myself this year...
*being healthy....not only in working out, but in eating and drinking...more carbs less fat, more water!!
*getting up in the morning and running for like 5-10 min. and having a quite time. just to be w/ God and think about the day and to just relax.
*having a set time to come home and do homework....i know that sounds retarded..but you've got to get in the habbit...or ill never do it...im a BIG procrastinator..
*i want to really strive to be Jesus to everyone. i've really thought about that this summer...and i think that if i really work on that then ill become closer to him...and i wont have quite so many ppl hate me. ;)
*i want to budget...that something im NOT good at at all...and i really need to start working on that BEFORE i get to college...that would be a really good thing....so im really going to strive to do that.
*i want to make all A's in all my college classes...i almost did last year, and it KILLED me to know that i almost did but i didnt...you know....so i want to do it this year FOR SURE!
*have the best track season yet! i had a pretty stinking good one my soph. year but i want to really strive to do better this year...i think the whole diet and running thing will help alot w/ that one...
*i want to really be totally and COMPLETELY honest w/ EVERYONE this year...im usually good at that. im one to hide things..mostly b/c i dont have much to hide but i just really want ace that concept.
so there are 8 of them...and im sure there are more....but these are the ones i REALLY REALLY want to strive for and succeed at. that would rock my world if i could do all of these...and im going to pray that God will help to do so. i just have to keep myself accountable.
SO...whoever you are reading this...you should get back to doing more important things...like your life or something. anywho...sorry for taking up your time...have an awesome day!! PEACE!!
The last friday of summer...
So today is the last friday of my summer 2007.
It really has been an amazing summer. One of the best i think. But to kick off the morning...well EARLY this morning i talked to drew. i think i got off the phone at like 2...so it was an early good morning...good night kind of thing. but anywho...at about 9:45 i got up and went for a jog. it was amazing. usually i dont go by myself, but this morning God was telling to get out there and just be at peace and get a work out at the same time. so i did. it was gorgeous out side and it wasnt really hot yet so the temp was perfect. but just being outside and getting fresh air and being at peace w/ everything and just having time to myself was really good, on top of doing something i love, and thats running. but anywho, i got back all sweaty and nasty so i took a shower...those are always good. and after that i sat down at the comp and im still sitting here. but i did take a break to go see if i could go get my parking permitt. but that didnt happen. but whatev. OH...and sammi is here! she stayed the night last night...and we just chilled, and she's still sleeping...hehe. i find that quite amusing. idk why...but for the rest of the day idk whats going to happen..i dont really have anything planned...but who knows...not me.
anyway...
about my summer....
its been such a good summer...even though i havnt had the greatest things happen to me, its just been very eventful and good. just genuinely good. i know that God has blessed me w/ many things, but this summer he has just showered me w/ all sorts of great things....k so here is my list...
*Kadesh and all that came w/ it...
-finding my identity
-finding a REALLY good friend (Drew)
-finding the courage to show my true feelings to justin.
-becoming closer to God
* Mexico!!
-blessing us w/ safe travel
-blessing us w/ really good ppl to take care of us and really good hotel and food
-blessing our worksite and the attitudes of all the teens that went
-and helpig me find God in the little things
*Nightly convo's w/ Drew
-deep
-no awkward conversation
-we are the same person...
-finding out that there is someone out there that wont treat me like trash even if it is over the phone. i know deep down that he means it and he's not just charming me for the 'fling'
-totally haveing awesome random convos and not not talking...if that makes sense...
-there is alot more that i could write on this one...but ill save that for a rainy day.
*AUSTRALIA & NEW ZEALAND!!
-its amazing! finding out that God has created this earth for his pleasure, makes me happy.
-seeing Gods glory through everything we can take for granted.
-thanking my parents for taking me...that was basically my bday present...
-it was just an amazing experience and i cant really discribe specifically how it was awesome...but the whole thing was awesome!
*random trips and seeing ppl
-san antonio, drew came down to see me and it was awesome!!
-running w/ ashley all summer
-having close friends i can go to to talk about stuff w/
-and all the awesome things that come along w/ turning 18...
thats definatly not everything...but thats a good chunk. i really have had an amazing and blessed summer....why God has blessed me so much i dont know, but i will definalty thank him and accept his blessnig willingly...other than having an amazing family and awesome friends to help w/ my hectic life...
its good.
so school starts in 2 days...im excited and scared at the same time...i want to have fun and go into my senior year pumped and ready to go...but i dont want all the stress and homework that comes along w/ it. grrr....
but i guess thats ok...b/c that part of life. i cant wait to get the year over w/ though b/c i know that im ready for college...that really exciting....but anywho...this is really long and boring probably so ill write later...PEACE!!
It really has been an amazing summer. One of the best i think. But to kick off the morning...well EARLY this morning i talked to drew. i think i got off the phone at like 2...so it was an early good morning...good night kind of thing. but anywho...at about 9:45 i got up and went for a jog. it was amazing. usually i dont go by myself, but this morning God was telling to get out there and just be at peace and get a work out at the same time. so i did. it was gorgeous out side and it wasnt really hot yet so the temp was perfect. but just being outside and getting fresh air and being at peace w/ everything and just having time to myself was really good, on top of doing something i love, and thats running. but anywho, i got back all sweaty and nasty so i took a shower...those are always good. and after that i sat down at the comp and im still sitting here. but i did take a break to go see if i could go get my parking permitt. but that didnt happen. but whatev. OH...and sammi is here! she stayed the night last night...and we just chilled, and she's still sleeping...hehe. i find that quite amusing. idk why...but for the rest of the day idk whats going to happen..i dont really have anything planned...but who knows...not me.
anyway...
about my summer....
its been such a good summer...even though i havnt had the greatest things happen to me, its just been very eventful and good. just genuinely good. i know that God has blessed me w/ many things, but this summer he has just showered me w/ all sorts of great things....k so here is my list...
*Kadesh and all that came w/ it...
-finding my identity
-finding a REALLY good friend (Drew)
-finding the courage to show my true feelings to justin.
-becoming closer to God
* Mexico!!
-blessing us w/ safe travel
-blessing us w/ really good ppl to take care of us and really good hotel and food
-blessing our worksite and the attitudes of all the teens that went
-and helpig me find God in the little things
*Nightly convo's w/ Drew
-deep
-no awkward conversation
-we are the same person...
-finding out that there is someone out there that wont treat me like trash even if it is over the phone. i know deep down that he means it and he's not just charming me for the 'fling'
-totally haveing awesome random convos and not not talking...if that makes sense...
-there is alot more that i could write on this one...but ill save that for a rainy day.
*AUSTRALIA & NEW ZEALAND!!
-its amazing! finding out that God has created this earth for his pleasure, makes me happy.
-seeing Gods glory through everything we can take for granted.
-thanking my parents for taking me...that was basically my bday present...
-it was just an amazing experience and i cant really discribe specifically how it was awesome...but the whole thing was awesome!
*random trips and seeing ppl
-san antonio, drew came down to see me and it was awesome!!
-running w/ ashley all summer
-having close friends i can go to to talk about stuff w/
-and all the awesome things that come along w/ turning 18...
thats definatly not everything...but thats a good chunk. i really have had an amazing and blessed summer....why God has blessed me so much i dont know, but i will definalty thank him and accept his blessnig willingly...other than having an amazing family and awesome friends to help w/ my hectic life...
its good.
so school starts in 2 days...im excited and scared at the same time...i want to have fun and go into my senior year pumped and ready to go...but i dont want all the stress and homework that comes along w/ it. grrr....
but i guess thats ok...b/c that part of life. i cant wait to get the year over w/ though b/c i know that im ready for college...that really exciting....but anywho...this is really long and boring probably so ill write later...PEACE!!
P.S. DREW!! i didnt center it just for you!! (your probably the only one that reads this anyway...)
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