Becoming Strong.

mood: humble
day: tough

Today was different. That's really the only way I can put it. School was normal except that last night I was thinking of how I cuss alot...and i REALLY need to stop. I dont do it to get attention, I'm not sure why I do it, I guess I feel like some of those words are the only ones that fit or something and so I use them. But I really really really need to work on that. So I was thinking about that this morning, but other than that school was normal until huddle.

So at huddle a lady name Lynda came and talked to us.
a little background about Lynda, she was/is Kerri's best friend so that is very important to me to know that we have a connection through Kerri already. And if you dont know Kerri was one of my very very dear friends that died of melanoma about 2 years ago.
But Lynda came and talked to the senior huddle tonight. She talked about how we need to go out and find someone to bring to christ and to be a "wet buger" as she refered to it as, but we really need to stick to God and rely on him and pray, pray, pray.
She told 3 impacting stories that all had to do w/ the greatest commands, and she brought it together by reading them. It was really powerful. I kind of started tearing up right there on the spot b/c she had been asking for prayers and got some emails back and she read on from Kerri's mother, Mayrolyn. That was really touching to me b/c I know her and Kerri's 2 precious girls, Carlee and Jolee.
But on the way home I just couldn't get this terrible feeling out. I didnt know what to do, so I start tearing up, all the while listening to Casting Crowns. So I'm driving and crying. Trying to figure out what God is trying to tell me. And the song "Love Them Like Jesus" come on. So I begin to sing along and I'm thinking to myself, this is EXACTLY what I need to be doing. so many times in school you get sucked into the "usual" and you do things that you would NEVER do and you gossip and you cuss, and you ignore what God is trying to lay out in front of you. So the song is playing and I'm trying to sing along and I just stop singing and start bawling. Tears are streaming down my face..and im thinking how can I be different, how can I make a difference. And it hit me, when a person comes to me w/ a problem or a praise, I need to pray w/ them right there. I don't need to wait and put on the weekly prayer list, I need to be w/ them and pray w/ them right then and there. w/ the motherly gene I have instilled w/in me I need to be open to everyone and I need to love everyone like Jesus. I need to strive the christian girl I portray myself to be and I need to pray, w/o ceasing. When I got home I opened my bible and I opened to Psalm 37 and Joshua 1:9. those verses are so powerful for everything in my daily life. They have impacted my life so much. So from this day forward I want to strive to be a example in the fact that I want to pray w/ you when your going through that needs prayer. I want the WANT to be there for you and pray for you. And I also want to be more like Jesus, to beome stonger.


Love Them Like Jesus lyrics
The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

So thats about it for now, I hope you have an amazing week. God bless.