whew what a day!

mood: blah
good day/bad day: it wasnt bad....

so this morning we had FCA...which is totally cool. and one of my really good friends did the lesson...but as i was listening it came to me that i really needed to do a lesson on forgivness....which is weird b/c thats something i dont struggle w/. but i think im going to do that. which will be TOTALLY AWESOME! im pumped...

but anywho...i've been thinking alot about the future lately...which i should be...but more specifically like real near future...
this weekend is my last marching contest i will ever go to...which is a VERY good thing...but im sad that i have to leave everyone...
and next week im taking my ACT and im really getting serious about college...and very soon ill be attending my last high school football game EVER! thats so sad. :(
but it really hits home to know that some of your very best friends are about to step out of your life forever. i dont like that feeling...at all.
i know that God doesnt want us to worry about the future and stuff, and im not, but i really want to know if ill be surrounded by good people. and that ill be supported in everyway. and this is all totally his will and i dont have a clue about any of it...but i can help but wonder about it..

oh by the way...school is KICKING my butt right now...i love it love it love it...but biology and gov't are a killer. im trying to prepare myself for college, and my mom is working to help me to try to mange my money, but i feel like i really need to step it up and take complete control of EVERY aspect of my life....like money, time, school, my extracarriculars, everything. i want to be on my own and i want to take care of myself and be independant....i guess i just want freedom...but other than that i think school is awesome...its by far the best year of school so far and its done nothing but get better...so im really looking forward to it...

so this blog is totally random but i dont really care...hope i didnt waste too much of your time...i hope you have a great day!!! PEACE!